2015-05-22

Coincidence, Providence, Questions

The moment you drop a word such as "providence" into the soup, a flurry of questions, largely from the self, are thrown at you. Questions varying from destiny, freedom of choice to god and being. Definitely, my opinion on such topics has changed quite drastically from just a few years ago. Not that I now believe in an overseeing, all controlling god. But, I definitely have come to an understanding that there are things beyond reason. And, it only is fair to conclude that we as humans, do not know. Or to rightly put it, I do not know. And, I am quite happy that I've arrived at this. For I see clearly, that such an opinion has not been imposed upon me. It has come as a result of the endless beating that was served upon me.

I've definitely questioned the "not been imposed" aspect. "Coincidence and Providence" were never so distinctively observed or analysed until I did some Paulo Coelho reading. Lets say, a door was opened. A door that enabled me to see things in a different angle. Things that I usually dismiss as a coincidence, are becoming harder to classify so.

28 hours ago, I was brought to my knees by a simple question, "why". That question, was at the end of a trail of similar questions, caused by some minor setbacks. On any other day, I would have had a convincing answer. But then, when one did not turn up, I ended up scourging the streets and bars looking for one. In a matter of hours, I saw many an old pursuit show up in one way or the other. Nothing very big. A smile. A nod. A wave. Like someone was deliberately showing a pattern of connections. Like the world understood that I am suffering, and decided to pat me on the back.

Because we feel our presence, and intuitively cross paths.
Because we strongly acknowledge, without a word, nor a smile.
Because we gaze so deep, like knowing for eons.
Because, we still know not our names.