Calvin, my guru.

"You've taught me nothing except how to cynically manipulate the system."


That fckin helmet

Of all the things that can be done, the stupid government that I voted to office, forces me to wear a dumb fckin helmet. I cannot see anything properly. I cannot drive confidently. I cannot even checkout shobana on the billboard properly (omg, she is hawt). Driving around chennai's uncivilized traffic with that heavy thing on my head, and a narrowed down vision (am I a horse?), is seriously not funny.

Instead of using my tax money to fix the fcking roads, the bastards are finding new ways to get more money. If I dont give a shit about my safety, why the hell should someone else do? As long as I do not create a problem for someone else, why should it be a bother? Why dont the stupid cops understand that their dirty noses aint breathalysers. Why dont they understand that they cant judge speed just by looking? Why dont they understand that, using the indicators and then wading through traffic without cutting anyones path, is not rash-driving?

I pay the government every year so that I can go through this shit. And, after all that, TASMAC sells me rum labeled as whiskey and forces it down my throat. At times I seriously wonder whether there is any point in being loyal to this country, or to its people.


The schedules and calendars bugged me so much beyond my own realization that I so willingly indulged at the first opportunity to get drunk. Sitting on the pavement, watching the traffic and sipping on whiskey was the last thing that I thought I would be doing on a Saturday evening. It sure was fun. I guess, just pushing things aside and letting the mind free is a real motivator :P

Hmm, how long am I gonna fight this fight.


In search of the filter paper

Freaked out totally on the new coffee maker and soon realized that I dont have any more filter cones to use. Tried the usual places. Tried even the unusual places. Looks like you just dont get them in Chennai :( Cleaning that plastic mesh after every round of coffee aint funny at all.

Anybody knows where to get that filter cone? Screw the cone, atleast filter-paper (kitchen use type)?


Breaking the still

One dream to shatter the still,
To let ripples run around,
Which rise and wet the dying roots on the shore,
Giving it that vain hope which it should not have.


Some songs just touch you deep, and drag your heart out.. Here is one.

The higher I am reaching - the closer to the sun
The more I learn the less I know for sure
For each machine I'm leaving I find a bigger one
For each step I turn wiser than before
But it's burning me...
Pilgrim, where are you going?
Pilgrim, your roads turning bleak
Pilgrim, true to your knowing
But what will you pay for the Grail that you seek?

Though these roads seem endless
And life seems out of reach
The roads I left were better off unwalked
If I had just been stronger
If I had dared to see
Maybe I would not have had to go this far
But still I won't give in...

[Pilgrim Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com]
Pilgrim, where are you going?
Pilgrim, your roads turning bleak
Pilgrim, This quest is your calling
...the curtains are falling...
Pilgrim, where are you going?
And who sets the price on the answers you seek?

-- Pain of Salvation



Nope I cannot hear the honking behind me. Morrison is singing "break on through to the other side..". My mind still debating which side I am on. Can I just step over and be happy? ".. we chased our pleasures here, dug out treasures there .." But I liked where I am. Felt better than where I was. Are those two hags going to get off the road now? "..still recall, the times we cried..".. Heh., he is not singing about me. Should I slow down now? Those dumb women aint getting off the road. Slam those brakes.. Cant hear the screeching skid. "..break on through to the other side. break on through..". Phew, managed to keep my ass on the seat. The women are amused or shocked or whatever. The innova guy is blinking his lights reminding that I scared the shit out him and am blocking his way. He aint happy. Must be blaring his horns. "..to the other side, yeah..". That old man on the scooter is animating like cartoon on mute. Yeah, yeah., now blame me old man. I am sure you cant walk in my shoes. Hmm.. should pull over and change the song.


Stop selling Jesus., fckers

Have you met one of these morons who think they dropped straight out of Jesus's ass? Man., these fckers are one fcking pain in the ass. They just cant keep their wagging tongues in their dirty mouths. They just cant do their work. They just cant mind their own fucking business. They have to come over and tell you what you should do. They have to swear by a book which they dont understand jack. They have to do the kissing-hanks-ass thing over and over. They have to ruin the last bit of high you could scratch out of that old dried crappy weed. And., they have to ruin my peaceful Saturday morning.

For heaven's sake., the man is dead. He _IS_ dead. Too bad. You could not save him. So., fckin stop obsessing over him. Get over it. Do something useful in life. Losers.


Been away

Yes I have been away. I've been trying to do a lot of things. Been a bit busy with work.

Have been trying to concentrate on all those projects that I had neglected a bit. Hopefully i'll be able to change the scripts of my personal website soon. Hopefully all those 5 projects which i am working on for my college go well. Hopefully that success takes me somewhere. :-S

Unbelievably, I have been sober for the past 8 days (literally). But coffee seems to be replacing alcohol these days. Not a good sign.

I've been forcing myself to have only fruits for one meal a day, and I am actually sticking to it :) I've been forcing myself not to eat at that dingy, dirty road-side fast-food. But looks like my bike wont go beyond that shop without stopping :-S

I have been trying to get at least 6 hours of sleep a day, which I am successful on atleast 3 days in a week.

Hmm.. Maybe I should i not try so hard :-S



I will not break
I will not look down
I will not step back
I will not let that choke in my throat to keep me quiet.


more trains.. more trains..

This I typed some time back but never posted. Anywayz, here it is :D

Guy-D was getting married to Lady-R in two phases. Phase one was a hindu wedding at lucknow. And phase two was a christian wedding at Kerala. As always., we waited till the trains were full to start planning the travel. Without a straight train we were forced (not really) to take a round-about-route to lucknow. i.e., chennai->nagpur->jabalpur->lucknow. Chennai->Nagpur and Jabalpur->Lucknow was the regular drab., an AC coach.

Nagpur->Jabalpur was on a narrow-gauge train (train-no = 1NNJ). These narrow gauge trains look like toy trains (no joke). It has only one reserved compartment in the entire train. And that reserved compartment has 31 seats and 5 berths. One has to reserve both a seat and a berth if he plans to travel in the night. This train takes a longer route via Chindvada to get to Jabalpur from Nagpur and reaches in 18 hours (the normal train takes 6 hours). Its max-speed is around 40kmph :D. And., every compartment except the reserved one is packed with people hanging out of everywhere.

People would think we are crazy to do that route. But., for the painful 18 hours, you are rewarded with amazing terrain, thick forests, a huuuuge waterfall right next to the track, and even some tigers if you are lucky :D The train goes through the beautiful satpura forests of Madya Pradesh. So., considering all that., I would say that the straight train is drab.

After four days of trains, lucknow's biriyani and kebabs felt like heaven. And oh., the bridegroom-party started 12 hours later from chennai and reached lucknow 24 hours earlier than us :P


The konkan railroad trip

It actually started as trip to kannur (kerala) for Deepak's wedding., but whats the fun if we just saw deepak take the fall and got back home. So., made an extensiond to take the konkan railroad to goa and back :)

We stopped for a night at 'bekel beach camp' before taking the early morning 'manglore to madgaon' passenger train.

The beach camp is a bunch of (amazingly) well furnished tents put up right next to the beach. With electricity, nice warm beds, clean loo and Rs1500 per head including food it beats any other decent hotel accomodation hands down. After downing a crate of beer near the beach under a stormy cloudy weather, we retired into our beds with heavy rains beating the canvas and water flowing under the cots.

From manglore to madgaon (goa) all we could see was rains, rains, and more rains. After a nice beer-lunch at "Martin's corner" decided to walk to colva-beach. It was a good walk with a gentle drizzle amongst casuarina trees next to the coast.

Colva is just another tourist town with a lot of tourist people doing the regular tourist stuff. And., we were really not the tourist people so moved on to mobor. Mobor was a ghost town. Apart from the three of us and another bunch of four playing cards., the entire town seemed deserted. We forced one guy from the card-playing bunch to break his game and drop us back at the railway station to catch our train back to banglore.

There is a reason why I like 'pecos'. It is this 'baywatch' (near Elliot's beach) of banglore without 'the coffee & the beach' :) Had some awesome lunch listening to 'The Doors' and washing it down with watered-down-pecos-beer (Trademark?). Crawled to 'styx'., and then to 'the tavern'. And., then back to the station.

Now., that was one good "Deepak's wedding trip". Thanks deepak ;)


'Chennai'., the beer deprieved city.

After one hell of a ride across the city under the hot sun., you step into a local bar to find out they dont have a mug of chilled lager for you. And., they serve you something called 'Madras pilsner'. Not a very bad beer., but still not a lager. Aaargghhh...

Been seeing this lately. Its become increasingly hard to get beer in the city. Cant get even stupid sand-piper at TASMAC. A KF-lager is a blessing. Twice last month 'zarras' served sand-piper because they did not have kf-lager. Last tuesday bikes ran out of draught beer at 19:00., with hardly any crowd. Even the bloody boot-legger does not have kf-cans.

What am I doing in this shit-hole. grrr...


Meet `lark`.

`lark` is this beautiful thing., which feels so good to hold. `lark` responds better than any other thing i've known before. `lark` is atleast 6 times more beautiful than the other two dames I have on my desk. `lark` whistles., `lark` sings... `lark` kicks yer mamma's ass.. :D

`lark` is a sony vaio with a 1.6GHz core-2-duo and 1.5GB RAM. `lark` is a gift that my boss gave. `lark` is the latest entry into my sweet little family :)

And., this post is from `lark`.


Tagged by gadfly ..

1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it:

I was happy on the bike. A silly dog on the road did not like that. Decided to screw my day and jumped in the middle. I tried saving it., did a nasty twist., ended on the road. Bruised knee, bruised ankles.. :(

2. What is on the walls in your room?

A huge chennai map

3. What does your phone look like?

Like a girl's phone :(

4. What music do you listen to?


5. What is your current desktop picture?

The album art of the 'Angel of Retribution' album by Judas Priest

6. What do you want more than anything right now?

Anything cold.. this summer sucks.

7. Do you believe in gay marriage?

Why not?

8. What time were you born?

Sometime early morning.

9. Are your parents still together?


10. What are you listening to?

The Doors - Light my fire

12. The last person to make you cry?

Dont remember.

13. What is your favourite perfume/cologne?

I use a deo., but not a perfume person.

14. What kind of hair/eye colour do you like on the opposite sex?

Hmm., so far its all been black.

15. Do you like pain killers?

Dont see a reason why I should.

16. Are you too shy to ask someone out?

Nope.. :D

17. Fave pizza topping?

Chicken Tikka.

18. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?

Whoa., a 'brownie with ice-cream.'

19. Who was the last person you made mad?

Hmm., that asshole on the road who was wriggling like a snake in front of me.

20. Is anyone in love with you?

lotsa... :D :D



I'm not going to grow a paunch..
I'm not going to forget the password for this blog..
I'm not going to let my bike rust..
I'm not going to let people think i'm dead..
I'm not going to be surprised when beer prices go up..

I _am_ alive :D


Stupid indians.

I'm quite amused at the way these lunatics are making a scene out of Gere kissing Shilpa. Now., the world knows what morons we have here in India. :P All they want to do is brag about some unrelated ass's wedding or burn effigies of some sportsmen or go bother people in pubs or blame the rape victim for the rape.

Bah. Our India. hmm..


The truth about romeos :P

well it comes down to this
juliet she's caught on to the clues
you know the one's that she missed
the one's that we knew
now she's got the news
she understands
she's not all wrapped up in the palm of his hands

juliet she won't come down
her heads high in the castle her hearts underground
it's as if "she didn't know"
the truth about romeo

the tables have turned
juliet she's got this brand new idea
and a few lessons that she's learned
how could she be so blind
in a spotlight so clear
now she understands
she's not all wrapped up in the palm of his hands


what if he did love her
it sure did not show
there's a certain kind of sincerity
and when you know you'll know
i think she should go now
the truth doesn't lie
the truth doesn't lie
the truth doesn't lie


Hmm., another break..

Well., not that I wanted to., but it turned out to be so.., Well..

So., what have I been upto?

I've been going around tamilnadu on a weird-unexplainable-trip. Dont bother asking., I still dont know why I went., and what I was doing.

I screwed my voice-box at the Iron Maiden (Blessed be their name) concert and was braying like a donkey all week.

Also to note., 'drink thrice a week' has become 'thrice a month' (NO I'm not trying to quit. Duh!).

And., now i'm listening to some silly song that has just 'uh.. ah.. papa.. mambo.. ah.. uh..' on RadioCity. Why?? Coz., my headphones broke :( And., i'm left with whatever my phone can offer.

Oh.. finally pulled up the courage to (er.. actually was forced to :-S) ditch my dear dear nokia 6310i and adopt a motorola ming. Grr.. what smartphone., what shit. Cant beat my 6310i. :-S

Finally I agree., barista coffee is a lot better than coffee day's. Coffee Day makes a 'joke of a coffee'. Hmm.. And slightly disappointed with google for forcing me to use a google account.. grr..


.. bells of notre dame.

A play is (or rather was) one of the last things that I would see myself at. But., a free ticket, a jobless evening, and the pester power of some 'significant people' landed me at Music Academy auditorium for "Hunchback of Notre Dame" by Stella Maris students.

Every character who sang in the play was no amateur. Frollo's high pitched singing filled the auditorium in spite of his (actually her) microphone failure. The gargoyles rocked.. Totally. They made sure a giggle ran around the audience every two minutes :) They even had Quasimodo swing into middle stage on a rope to save his lady interest. I was so impressed with the play., that I actually went over and collected a bunch of pamphlets for other upcoming plays :)


Digging deep..

I had my tools (or I thought I did) and was proud of them. I tried digging deep., a hole big enough to hide into. The deeper I dug., the harder it became. It broke my tools and left me with nothing. I lost it all., and proudly stepped in. Just to figure that I'm not deep enough.

Atleast this shot of whiskey should give me the sleep that the disappointment denied me.


Bless gadfly

Tagged by gadfly:

Awright., here it goes.

1. Were you named after anyone?

Yup., after some random guys belonging to the first century. :P

2. Do you wish on stars?


3. When did you last cry?

A couple of months back.

4. Do you like your handwriting?

Hell no. I myself cannot understand it most of the time.

5. What is your favourite meat?

Beef :)

6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf?

Grr.. eminem. not anymore though :)

7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?

Hmm.. needs thinking.

8.Are you a daredevil?

Well., depends.

9. How do you release anger?

Down some beer.

10. Where is your second home?


11. Do you trust others easily?

Not very easily. Takes time.. a lot of time.

12. What was your favourite toy as a child?

Trains :)

13. What class in school/college do you think is totally useless?

Value education in college. sucked big time.

14. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Duh! I dont.

15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?


16.What do you look for in a guy/girl?

traces of intelligence.

17. Would you bungee jump?

I sure will..

18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?


19. What's your favourite ice cream?

Chocolate with chocolate chips.

20. What are your favourite colours?

Black and Blue.

21. What are your least favourite things?

uh!! no idea.

22. How many people do you have a crush on right now?

Hmm., cannot be disclosed :P

23. Who do you miss most right now?


24. What are you listening to right now?

King Crimson - Matte Kudasai

25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?


26. What is the weather like right now?

Freezing.. Grr...

27. Last person you talked to on the phone?


28. The "first" thing you notice about the opposite sex?

Hair :D

29. Do you like the person who sent you this?

Absolutely. She owes me a coffee.. :D

30. How are you today?

As good as I should be.

31. Favourite non alcoholic drink?

Tropicana - orange

32. Favourite alcoholic drink?


33. Natural hair colour?


34. Eye colour?


35. Wear contacts?


36. Siblings?


37. Favourite month?


38. Favourite food?

Pork stakes

39. Favourite day of the year?

Hmm... dont have one.

40. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out?

Hmm... many times. :D

41. Scary movies or happy endings?


42. Summer or winter?


43. Holi or Diwali?

Er.. neither.

44. Do you like your name?

Why not?

45. What book/magazine are you reading?


46. What's on your mouse pad?

I dont use one.. duh!

47. What did you watch on TV last night?


48. Favourite Smell?

Hmm.. never figured. :-S

49. Have you ever regretted breaking up with someone?

Er.. why the hell would i.

50. Most tiresome thing you’ve ever experienced/done?

This stupid questionaire..

:-S Hmm., I feel like punishing some people., but i'd rather let them be.. poor things. I better save some blessings to count for in the end :P


Tamil cinema., man.. oh man..

Last night., after a wonderful day of beach and biriyani., I was sitting down for a quick dinner at home. Some movie was on one of the cable channels.

Our hero in the movie fights with a whole bunch of bad guys. The bad guys keep pouring from every possible hole in the arena. And., our hero kicks/punches/throws them in every possible direction. For every bad guy that gets thrown in the air., the frame is frozen and taken around 180 degrees. Then finally., our hero sort of goes down., when all the bad guys pile up over him one over the other. And., our man (the hero), breathes deep and throws away all the bad guys piled up on him.

Nope., wrong guess. It is not the Matrix. Its is a Tamil movie called 'anniyan'. When will these guys ever grow up?? Hmm... :-S