2006-07-19

This day., that year...

This day, that year., I surprised her with a cake and watched her eyes moisten in happiness behind the glisten of the candle as she made her wish.

For this day, that year., I travelled in an crowded unreserved compartment, sitting next to the toilet putting up with the stink, to see her smile the next day when i surprised her with a flower on the way to her college.

For this day, that year., I starved to fainting because i spent all the borrowed money in buying gifts and cards to send to her to make up for not being with her on the day.

This day, this year., I stand keeping my head high with all the pseudo male pride that I've got over it and still unable to explain why a tear just rolled down.

... Memories, pressed between the pages of my mind ...

32 comments:

Parvathi said...

life's a bitch but we all move on.did she get married?

Da Rodent said...

@parvathi: no.. today is the birthday.. just old memories.. :-S

Sindhu said...

:( but life goes on..

Da Rodent said...

Yay.. blogspot is back :)

@sindhu: yeah., it does... to nowhere though :-S

manasa said...

lol yay again
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ...obv da gal doesnt deserve ya ...n kill tht tiny tear away ...
p.s-why dont u do those facials n stuff tht nowadays metroguys do hehe then da gal might come back to u rodent lol
teecee
manasa

Da Rodent said...

Does that face in the picture look like any facial is gonna help?? :( :(

Da Rodent said...

BTW., i dont want her back. I rattled my head for a long time., and figured i dont want her back. But the fact that things had to have a rotten ending is quite irritating.. grr..

rini said...

u'll have you're happy ending and u don need a facial it will ruin it..

Arvind said...

It isn't at all a scenario of "I want her but I can't have her"... Is it??

I figure its just a question of your priorities...
A year is a long time, but ur words sound like you're still waiting for a tiny light of hope... & yet you say you do NOT want her back..
Is it the person inside you talking? Or did you type those words down involuntarily?? Lol..

Apparently, Ur confusing.... :)

Da Rodent said...

@rini: Hmm., the face is damaged beyond repair huh?? :P

Da Rodent said...

@arvind:

> It isn't at all a scenario of "I want
> her but I can't have her"... Is it??

Well., it started out like that. Then., too many things happened. And then i decided that I'm gonna force her out of my head., and so put my head into a couple of other women., who screwed it up even more :-S. But thats another story :P

Once in a while some silly thing comes up and digs those good times out and making the current one painful :-S

Hmm.. you know what. If I get to meet god (in whom i've no faith)., I'll ask him to wipe my memory clean. Its easier that way. I dont mind re-learning all that dumb calculus :-S

manasa said...

lol how bout botox plus um a teeth set ...n um nu eyeballs n oh yea HAIR

Da Rodent said...

Hmm., and then I'll look like this

rini said...

nope its good as it is SO DON MESS IT UP I'LL STOP VISITING (Like u care..lol. but ya worth a shot :P)

Da Rodent said...

@rini: awright... awright.. I leave it as it is.. :-S

Raghav said...

dude thats like poetry

manasa said...

lol fine fine ...um u look pwitty allright as it is ..(why do i evah open my damn mouth *

rini said...

ever tried poetry??

susmita said...

@ rini

this guy is great at poetry!

you really should have attempted to write a poem than going the prose way....

Arvind said...

Oh NO NO!!!
No amount of bad memories are worth learning dumb calculus all over again!!
I'd jump off a cliff before then..

& come on now.. IF you really met God (on whom I don't have too much faith either), couldn't you ask him for something simpler like she never existed? Or riches & wealth far beyond ur believable limits?? Lol..

& meanwhile.. We anxiously await the story bout how ur life got screwed by two other women..
We would prefer two parts please.. Each one of those women deserve seperate prime time! Lol..

Da Rodent said...

@raghav: Na.. Na.. its not poetry..

@manasa: Uh!! yeah right.. consolation huh!! :-S

@rini: a couple of times., on sush's blog :P

@sush: at the moment i was writing this down., I just wanted to dump that burden down somewhere. So., did not think :-S

@arvind: Aw.. I had a secret crush on calculus., though I never fared any good in it. Well., actually yea.. 'she never existed' is a good choice. I dont mind a lineup of porches in my garage., but well.. not really desperate about it :P As long as i can afford my beer i'm happy :). Hmm., two parts huh?? awright.. will come soon :P

rini said...

thanks for the info sushmita:)
and to rodent :a rodent who writes poetry too..lol great so can i see them (cant locate on sushmita's blog )or are you one of those g8 poets who shuns stardom???..:P

Da Rodent said...

@rini: Ok., thats a lot of hype-up. I'M NO POET. :-S The tit-bits are on her comments.

rini said...

tried commenting there but wudnt post for sum odd sorry had to leave my comments since its POETRY..hehe reason anyway here goes :

whoaaaa..this is damn good makes the poems on my blog feel like ntn..neway love the lines"The blistering rays of the sun attempted to persuade her to move on,"..very powerful image.
also from the commen made later.
"stood watching him,
who walked her out of her desert."
PLEASE write more poetry :)

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Su said...

This day, next year I hope you have someone who'll make you smile :) ( If you do not aldready)

P.S : This day, That Year : Beautiful play with words

Da Rodent said...

@rini: awright.. awright.. I'll put them here when i get them in my mind :)

@paranoia: nothing yet :( hopefully i get a shoulder soon :-S.. Well., for a second I thought it would sound like that column on 'The Hindu' with a similar title., 'This day, that age' :-P

Why Am I said...

awww come on...wipe tht tear off and do some serious partying@...tht'll doo u good:)and if tht doesnt work u can cry on our blog shoulders:)

manasa said...

ay rod
UPDATE

Arvind said...

That day has long gone...
Yet you shed tears of dying history...

Get over it and enthrall us with another story..

c said...

dude.. after all. HER loss.Always IS.u got ur memories to hang on to and those r irreplacable. besides made u stronger didnt it?be glad for tht.

Da Rodent said...

@whyami: yeah.. yeah.. The next day morning., i was at the bar :D enjoying my whiskey.

@manasa: ok., I did it :)

@arvind: Hmm... man i've cursed myself enough for such stupidity. Anywayz., the other two women that i promised is on the way :D

@c: 'Stronger'., sure it did. And., i'm glad for that. I just hope i dont become immune.